starlight, starbright

Emotional thawing just in time for summer.

you know, until i recently let it down, i didn’t realize i’ve had my guard up for the better part of two years.

it feels weird to really feel again. it’s bittersweet though because the highs are so high, but the lows are too low. i forgot what it felt like to feel sad for no real reason. but to some extent, i like it. it makes me feel real again.

and now i’m nervous that i’ll lose this feeling and go back to before… i guess i didn’t realize my life was becoming gray until i took a step outward and looked back in.

i’m in the mood for a really good movie… something sad and romantic. say anything, perhaps. it’s been awhile since i’ve seen it… i brought it to my place about 8 months ago and have yet to actually watch it.

i’ve been listening to a lot of different music lately for whatever reason… jack johnson, ani difranco, john legend, shinedown, damien rice.. i’m all over the place musically right now, and i like it.

hmm now that i think of it, i brought my guitar up here a couple weeks ago. i can’t believe i haven’t really played it all year. maybe it’s part of the reason i’m feeling so emo-centric lately… but it’s definitely fun to play. i’m partial to some michelle branch and avril though 😛

i can taste summer coming. there are certain smells that i forget about until summer rolls around, and then they all come flowing back in my memory: bonfires, sunblock, cookouts, fresh-cut grass… and then there are the images, pictures of things in my mind that probably weren’t as good as i remember, yet i can see them so vividly: cramming in a car to go to drive-in movies, covered in bugspray and armed with snacks; wandering around amusement parks dripping wet from water rides; grabbing an elephant ear and some cotton candy at the local fair; seeing a movie on a weeknight and leaving the theater to meet the warm night air… these are the things i hope to do every summer; sometimes i do, sometimes i don’t… but this year i’m hoping extra hard.

well i’m off to sleep so i can finish my final tomorrow and get on with my weekend…

sleep tight & stay classy,
r-o-s-s

current mood: different

current music: feist – mushaboom

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19 responses to “starlight, starbright”

  1. canistartover Avatar
    canistartover

    let’s have a romantic comedy weekend. and watch a billion movies.

    hope to see you soon.

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      i can’t think of anything i’d love to do more 🙂

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  2. kirkjerk Avatar
    kirkjerk

    That’s a really nice sensory-laden homage to summer….actually I might kisrael’ize it if that’s ok.

    re: movies…I think I need to see Say Anything one of these days.

    Sad and romantic… Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind comes to mind. Or Unbearable Lightness of Being? At least it has some melancholy bits. Actually I think I remember watching that one at your hours back in like…yeesh, 1992 or so.

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      hmm, i actually had never heard of unbearable lightness of being… after reading some of the comments on imdb, i think i’ll have to check it out.

      and say anything is a must, if for nothing else than the often referenced scene with john cusack and the boombox over his head.

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      1. kirkjerk Avatar
        kirkjerk

        Yeah, I kind of knew about that scene…

        Phillip Kaufman, the guy who made Unbearable Lightness (also a great book by Milan Kundera) also adapated Anais Nin’s diaries into “Henry and June”… great film if you like artistic sexiness and sensuality. It’s the one they invented NC-17 for, back when they were trying to make movies for adults that did’t have the “X” stigma. (I think more films are inclined to shy away from sex these days, kinda the Wal-mart factor)

  3. void22 Avatar
    void22

    hey ross, check out “the advantage”, they play nes songs, but it actually sounds good

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      i checked ’em out… totally awesome.

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  4. _rainbowdust Avatar
    _rainbowdust

    guitars, mm hmm…
    not sure if you saw my other comments, but i like your taste in music.

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      i did see your other comments, and your comments are appreciated! i went to leave one on your journal, but sadly, you have friends only on.

      oh! and i saw in your info that you live in canada, do you like it there?

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      1. _rainbowdust Avatar
        _rainbowdust

        Hehe, want to be added? Even though you seem to update monthly, I like your entries, and your face! Ha, sorry had to say that. BUT OMG, I love that shirt you have…with the fishie thing. Forget what it’s called.

        Ha. Yes Canada is nice. Very clean….and boring, in a good way I suppose.

        Where do you live!?

      2. therosser Avatar
        therosser

        haha sure thing. i plan to update more often, but we’ll see how it goes.

        i live in cleveland, ohio… though i’ve had this thing for canada for the past couple years, so i’ve been wanting to find somewhere up there to live in a few years when i’m ready to really start my life, you know?

      3. _rainbowdust Avatar
        _rainbowdust

        Alrighty then, I shall add you :].

        Ohio, eh. There’s a song called “Ohio” I like. Sorry, I digress too much! Awesome. Canada is a very peaceful place…and the health care system is better than that of America’s. Ha.

      4. _rainbowdust Avatar
        _rainbowdust

        Oh, and I’d love to see more entries from you!

  5. void22 Avatar
    void22

    we should prolly just see how many comments this thingcan take….

    do you know when joe will be in town?

    holla

    ps i’ll be home next wed night for say anything and maybe thursday

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      haha well coincidentally joe will also be home next wednesday… he’ll be here for about 10 days.

      so i’m not sure of his schedule but we could either go out wednesday or thursday if you’re in town.

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      1. canistartover Avatar
        canistartover

        i want to see joe!!!!!

  6. canistartover Avatar
    canistartover

    seeing how many comments, eh?

    i can leave lots.

    p.s. i really enjoyed our spring break nights. it was total flashback-mode….

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    1. therosser Avatar
      therosser

      i quite enjoyed them as well… we definitely need to ihop again.

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