this won’t be a very long update… just felt like writing a bit on here, no reason in particular.

finishing up school… in february/march i was very eager for this semester to be over, but now for some reason i don’t want it to end. i feel like life is moving by rather quickly at the moment.

there are many things that i have left unsaid… not really generally speaking; it’s not that i have hidden feelings or moods or anything of the sort… but there are certain people that i have lost contact with that had we not stopped talking, i would have said more. [well, obviously.] there are just friends that i’ve lost touch with and whatnot.

nowadays, i spend my computer time reading up on people i barely (if ever) talk to, finding out as much as i can about what they’re up to. ever do that? read someone’s journal even though you’re not really directly involved in their life? i’m not sure why i do it, i guess i’m just curious to see how people that i once knew (or somehow indirectly know) are doing. i especially like the poetic way certain people choose to express themselves. not sure why.

another note, ever think about your behavior in retrospect? i look back to like 9 months ago and think about how i tried (and generally failed) to be emotionless. i don’t think that was written in my cards though… i’m whimsical and irrational when it comes to many things, and while i do enjoy logical thought, i tend to find it fitting to apply it selectively. it fits for me, that is. but to each his own. i’m sure in 9 more months, i’ll have some thought on my current behavior… and i’ll be interested to find out what i (will) think.

i’m looking out the window, and it’s drizzling… in fact, it’s been raining on and off the past few days… last week we even had a pretty strong downpour. still, i haven’t really felt it yet. i mean, i’ve felt the water, but i haven’t felt the rain. to be honest, i haven’t felt a really good rain in a very long time.

current mood: calm/tired

current music: regina spektor – carbon monoxide