just because i’m losing doesn’t mean i’m lost

Loose thoughts from somewhere between my past and future selves.


i wonder what happened to all the moments i once considered memorable. i guess by definition they weren’t memorable in the first place… or maybe they’re just lying dormant in my mind, waiting for a few seconds before i die so they can flash before my eyes.

though, sometimes i wonder what my past self would say to me now. i’m sure depending on which “past self” the message would be quite different. i bet my first grade self would wonder why i’m not an astronaut, a cop, or a superhero.

my biggest fears:
(3) being a bad parent
(2) angry people
(1) bees

one thing i’ve always been bad at: rekindling lost friendships. i think about it often. and then do nothing. smooth.

right now, i’m not a fighter or a lover; i’m an indifferent who wishes he were one or the other.

there are about 330,000 jobs i could see myself being completely satisfied with, at least in the short-term. on that list: mailman, inventory auditor, lounge singer.

creation. destruction. creation. destruction. i heart i heart hucakbees.

also, rowan atkinson is superbly underrated.

today’s top (bottom) story: i know in my heart what’s right. i just don’t know whether i should listen to my heart.

current mood: bloggy

current music: ray j – sexy can i (okay, not really)


4 responses to “just because i’m losing doesn’t mean i’m lost”

  1. i completely “feel” (always seems creepy) you :].

    amen.

  2. canistartover Avatar

    i heart people who heart i heart huckabees.

    that was exhausting.

    it was beyond good to see you. it’s funny that parking lot nights are so much more memorable than ‘life changing events’ although, i’m pretty sure those parking lot nights have defined my life.

    the most memorable moments will always be remembered, they just might not be what we thought they were.

    1. i definitely need to see you more often.

      1. canistartover Avatar

        haha, i just realized your music choice.

        don’t lie, you KNOW you were listening to some Ray J. and some Mariah Carey. and some Katy Perry.

        ๐Ÿ™‚

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