school’s quickly wrapping up, and before long, i will be moving out… i’ll take the sheet of photographs off my wall from next to my bed, i’ll pack away the framed photos taken by my artistic friends… i’ll take home my lobster pillow, my poseable skeleton, my art posters from the closet doors.

i look at the pictures now and realize what a year at college has done. these pictures on my desk that stare at me every day now are of people i once knew, but know no more. my friendships with the people they represent have faded and changed.

it’s strange how you know people for that many years of your life and then that’s the end of it; you stop knowing them. either the communication between two people has been cut off, or their separate environments have changed one or both of them into something new, something fresh, something entirely different.

soon, it will be summer… i will see some of those people again, we will reminisce, remember the old times… but once fall hits again, the cycle continues, each time leaving less reminiscing come summer.

then, i will be an adult, with my new life, and new people… co-workers, a spouse, children… and the few friends i manage to keep through all of these cycles.

anyway… i suppose that’s enough of that. let’s just take things one step at a time. (heh, i feel like i’ve been saying that all night.)

it rained today… it was a beautiful, powerful rain. when it started pouring outside my window, i threw on my shoes and headed outside for a walk. the rain started to die down, so i headed into the dining hall to grab some superman ice cream… by the time i left, it had started to rain again, so i just stayed outside for a bit, thinking and eating ice cream. people were running away from the rain… covering their heads and darting into buildings. i don’t really know why; it’s just water. and like i like to say, whatever problems a person may have, “it’ll all come out in the wash.” well, i think that my walk in the rain was just the wash i needed. (not that i don’t shower… but that’s not the point.)

i want to pause time for a bit… just stop everything and take a walk. maybe even a 500 mile walk. (‘i would walk 500 miles…’ such a great song, featured in such a great movie.) i think that might help me sort out all of the thoughts in my head.

alright, i’m gonna get back to my homework now.

adios muchachos.

current mood: refreshed

current music: King Harvest – Dancin’ in the Moonlight